I have this bad habit of trying to express my personality through my clothing. I have this inner belief that if I dress hip, then I am hip. If I dress funky, I am funky. I think this started in high school (or junior high or somewhere in those formative years) when I was Very Preppy. It identified me. In fact, I was voted Most Preppy in my high school year book and that was a proud day for me. (not now, back then. Now it's embarrassing to admit it.)
Now in reality I am a 38 year old mother of a 20 month old son who is not particularly funky or hip. But I guess I want to be and keep thinking that the clothes will get me there. But the frustrating part is that I can't really find funky or hip clothes even when I look for them. (If I was Really hip, I would know where to find the hip clothes because hip people know these things intuitively. That's why they are hip in the first place.)
So I have all of these clothes that I keep buying and don't know what to do with because they aren't really me. I keep giving them to Goodwill (after an appropriate period of trying to make myself wear them). I think Goodwill and Purple Heart and the American Vets and all of those people really love me right now, with my bags of possibly hip clothes that I don't wear.
All that to say that I am now obsessed with finding "Asian inspired clothing". Anything that looks remotely Chinese (but probably not authetically Chinese, more like what I like to call "hip Chinese") is good with me right now. I have trouble finding the stuff. I guess it's my little misguided way of starting to transform myself into a hip, funky, not-really-hip-or-funky mother of a Chinese daughter. I just hope that she can express her personality correctly and not try to find herself in clothes.
Posted by grrlTravels at July 14, 2004 9:43 PM