Today was a momentous day. Today the dossier was submitted. I was expecting more fanfare. We started in March. Seven months rolled by. We struggled and filled out paperwork and got frustrated and took deep breaths and talked and pleaded. We sent money. We sent FedExs. We notarized more than we thought possible. We collected documents and filed and organized and copied and made lists and remembered.
And then suddenly it was Friday, the day to send off the little bits of paper. I felt a little sad. I was attached to those bits and didn't like to see them go. They were meaningful to me and represented my life with K. I had started to cherish them and wasn't quite ready to send them out into the big cold world by themselves. What if they were rejected? What if they didn't measure up? What if they were misplaced or lost?
But then I realized that those bits are just a means to an end. And that end is important and good and right. So I packed them all up and I shipped them off. A little window into our world. A glimpse of us. 6 little pictures to tell a long story. 4 smaller pictures to represent us in our absense. Words and words and words about who we are and what we want and how we will build our family. A little hopeful dream released and sent soaring.
It's good to be done.
Posted by grrlTravels at October 29, 2004 9:37 PMWe took pictures of ours before we sent it off, and joked about "our baby's first trip without us." It was definitely hard to let go of that stuff. I almost started sobbing when the FedEx lady asked me the value of the package.
Posted by: Jen at November 1, 2004 2:39 PMIt was strange letting go of the package of papers that I counted among my most prized possessions for three months, but I hand-delivered our dossier to our agency. I didn't hesitate to hand that sucker over to them. It was a relief to be free of it. Congratulations!!
Posted by: Michele at November 6, 2004 11:44 PM